As a philophobe, I don’t really care for relationships. I feel like it’ll only invite trouble and expectations that end in disappointment. Also sex... I’m not some horny teenager anymore, that time is over. There’s really nothing motivating me to get into a relationship. If there was ever a chance I could get in a trustworthy comfortable relationship and I could conquer my paranoia as well... maybe.
I feel this, though I do like a bit of flirting, so maybe I’m not too far gone… but my self hate and fear of boring or disappointing people is something I can’t seem to fix. People tell me to not give up, but I’m not even looking or trying to begin with, I just want friends who love, trust, and appreciate me. If one day I meet someone who is my new number one friend, then maybe I could try- man or woman idc. Love tires me out even though it was never here.
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That was my comment and replied…. I’m high and a dumbass.
I feel this, though I do like a bit of flirting, so maybe I’m not too far gone… but my self hate and fear of boring or disappointing people is something I can’t seem to fix. People tell me to not give up, but I’m not even looking or trying to begin with, I just want friends who love, trust, and appreciate me. If one day I meet someone who is my new number one friend, then maybe I could try- man or woman idc. Love tires me out even though it was never here.