Is it normal to be a girl but want to top?

Can't even believe I'm typing this.
But like, oh my gosh. I have no sexual experience. None. I was sexually assaulted by five different people (girls and boys) around the same time period. Would that have something to do with it? I've never really felt the overwhelming desire some people have to be touched or held, but damn imagining a guy moaning under me.... Maybe i read too much bl?


IS THIS NORMAL OR AM I ALONE.