Even though I tell my friends I totally trust u and stuff. In reality I'm never able to even if they r good ppl and I'm pretty close to them. I am unconsciously making a back up plan in my mind incase of betrayal at the same time I'm saying "I trust u". I'm not even aware I'm doing it sometimes. There's this voice in my head that says : I knw there...... 1 reply
I think my childhood till now is why I dont trust anyone. If I do I end up regretting and sadly closing myself off (I think this is like a toxic trait I have :(() I dont also believe in like bestfriends anymore, that was lost wooo, I have it a chance in becoming good friends and opening up but wow life must hate me so much or I deserve nothing that...... 1 reply
Okay okay calm down, take deep breaths if you can. You can get through this its going to be alright. Hopefully im not late to this but maybe you could try telling ur mom before the sister comes over if you think you can handle it if you cant dot worry. You should definetly break ties with this friend they obviously broke your trust also just calm d...... reply
