Wolfgang's manga / #don't fucking talk about how 'deep' this bullshit story is I need an advil after reading this(1)

Ok where do I even start with this one... I honestly feel disgusted. There’s this pit in my chest and I can’t stop myself from grimacing every time I think about the story. It’s a different kind of feeling than reading an extremely shitty or really sad story. It’s so just...wrong I guess that my empathy is in a complete twist. On one end I can empathize with the characters as much as a bi girl who’s never had to mourn the loss of a loved one but has dealt with feeling suicidal can BUT I cannot by any means bring myself to sympathize seriously with them because I genuinely think it’s stupid. I don’t know if that’s harsh because I’ve never heard of a situation where someone killed themselves because they couldn’t marry their brother but I actually think it’s stupid he conciously chose to gaslight his brother, kill himself because of a fleeting emotion, and then inflict trauma onto his so-called loved one selfishly. The worst case scenario would be marrying a girl and being forced to hide your identity I mean come on so many other gay people do it so don’t give me that crap about “oh I was bullied” because no, roku saved you unless you chose to not let him. It’s also not about the struggles of being gay at all because the only reason the character was gay was so he could provide a sick form of smut through basically prostitution and pedophilia. I’ve always hated media that oversexualizes the plot and it’s even worse when the plot is a hard-hitting topic like suicide. I would have been MILES less angry if this story was about a brother falling in love with his brother without all the sex with classmates, his step-dad, gaslighting, and sex addiction as a form of trauma. I’m just so tired honestly this manga was way too draining. My mind was constantly doing loops wondering whether I’m even allowed to be sad or if I should let myself consider the possibilities. In the end, I tried giving full empathy a shot and still came to the conclusion that it’s stupid, poorly constructed, and a sad excuse for a tragedy manga. I think the only valid chapter in this story was chapter 2 (I think) when I got to see Ichinose’s backstory of his father dying and his lack of closure. THAT would make me cry.