yona hime's manga / #Bl(74)

I never thought that a story can make me feel what i'm feeling now . everything in this manhua is perfect , the main characters and the relationship between them and it's development . while reading this manhua you'll get to taste a different kind of love , not that one you see in most mangas . it's a complicated one , full of all kinds of feelings , fear , loneliness , desire , hesitancy , but also happiness . from meeting in a bar to living together then falling in love with each other , step by step , the reader could understand every thought the main characters thought , every feeling they had , and every act they did. and finally both MC's found the place they belong to after being lost for a long time , a home to go back to , a person to embrace , a warmth telling you that you're not alone anymore . I really liked the characters development , especially the uke . for him , love was something he lost between all the words of love that he said without understanding the real meaning behind it . and at the first , he couldn't accept the fact that he has developed some feelings for a man , and maybe even now , he hasn't fully accepted that he may be a gay , but at least he knows that his feelings for the seme are real and he's not trying to deny it anymore , rather than that , he's trying to move forward while living with this fact . he can't promise to stay forever , but at least he cherishes the moment . on the other side , the seme is a guy who accepted his true sexuality and doesn't have a problem with it , but he's scared . scared that he'll lose the home that he found , scares that he may ruin it , scared that one day he'll return to his old self that didn't have something to cherish and never knew the true meaning of love . and he knows that one day this might happen , no matter what he does , the possibility will stay . that's why he's holding into the uke with the strongest he can , and at the same time trying to control his feelings that're increasing everyday so he won't end hurting the most precious person for him just to keep him for himself . and both of them knows that these feeling will last as long as they're together , the happiness and the bitterness . and actually maybe being in a relationship is something like that , sometimes you'll feel the happiest , and sometimes you'll find yourself shedding tears , sometimes you'll feel angry , and sometimes you'll feel that you're all alone , but even though , you can't just get rid of everything , you can't just say goodbye and go . so yeah , maybe that is what being in a relationship means...