Rae D.'s manga / #:/(15)

surprisingly boooooring, forced myself to finish, nothing but endless smut but not even entertaining or especially hot

no beuno

must add more smut bookmarks

Well down and dirty sure does win the award for most obscene and plentiful dirty talk I’ve read in a BL so far. However, it also wins the award for most problematic love story/couple or at least the most toxic top. Ugh idk man, that was truly sickening from head to toe. I can’t lie and say some (“some”) of the dirty talk wasn’t hot…. because it really was, BUT the sex wasn’t hot to match which was ugh *rme*. So then aside from some hot dirty talk what else is there? A toxic top, a wildly naive and stupid bottom, a nasty ass plot that downplays the entire concept of sexual assault at every turn nook and cranny it gets, a plot with holes that leaves off entire main characters and pretends they were never a thing, etc..... In short, this was quite irredeemably upsetting. UPDATE: hi, I re-read this randomly and for no reason. the dirty talk in this isn't nearly as serious as I made it seem in the first review lol. But that's because that first review was made when my experience with BL's of this nature was still quite small. so I know the me of the past was like "woah :o" haha. Anyway, coming back because I see I didn't give it a rating the first time, so I'll do that now. I liked the characters well enough and the world and the story and the art and the length and all that, BUT... as I said in my original review, I can not deny that it was a relatively upsetting read. Like... the MC being tortured as a sex slave for 2 years while the love interest plots his comeback? Mmmm, we don't like that. Like damn, MC decides to fall in love for the first time in his life and put his trust in someone and this is the consequence he has to suffer? It's wildly intense and sad. Also.... I get that the love interest dude almost died or what-EVER, but..... you being alive at all means that MC shouldn't have had to be in that place under those circumstances for nearly as long as he was. Like... two YEARS? Nah, hell nah. Also, for you to not even be the one to get him out.... he had to get himself out? Ew, if I was him there's no way I'd ever take your dumb ass back. Fuck that; frankly I might even arrange to have you killed lol. Haha okay maybe I wouldn't take it that far, but I would certainly not welcome you back with open arms the way MC does after you ruined his life and completely broke him, body and soul...... but hey..... that's what the MC wants so I guess I just have to let that go.... still made for an upsetting read... I see the score is as high as it is because this the kind of story that a certain subset of you bitches be liking and I can tell from the comments, lol. for me though, i'm giving this a 9.0 (and only that high because I'd be lying if I said I didn't find it enjoyable at all)

I’m not happy to have read this. Given the score it has and the art style and length though, me reading it was pretty inevitable unfortunately. *sigh* where to start? Ultimately, I just don’t like the the things this author has going on in her head. I really, really don’t. Suha and Jiwoon’s relationship was 100% worse than she was trying to make it seem like it was and that irked me. Jiwoon did shit all the time to prove that. From the get go, the thing that turned me off and pissed me off was the scene where he had sex with Suha in his office and then opened the door to let a third unaffiliated party see into to the room and look at the sleeping Suha lying on the couch with no clothes on…… (and probs cum still dripping out of his fucking ass bro). Like………….. I’m disgusted. That was a humongous invasion of privacy and trust. And the story ends without Suha ever knowing that such a thing happened. He goes on to develop a relation with the character that saw him not knowing this person saw him in that state. Actually sickening. While that is near the worst of his transgressions there are many many more. In BL there are often tops who range from problematic to toxic to abusive. Very, very often. But one of the things that makes the audience put up with this is that in addition to being problematic-abusive, the top is also 1) hot and 2) powerful. Wether that power comes from money, social standing, or actual physical or magical powers, he is often just so powerful that no one could ever step to him. This hot, abusive, powerful top may hurt the MC many times in the story, but you know what they won’t do? Let another motherfucker get away with hurting them. Jiwoon May be hot and toxic but he is not nearly powerful enough to fall into the same category as these aforementioned tops. In fact Suha has many ops in his life who are more powerful than Jiwoon and have active plans to hurt him. I have absolutely zero confidence in Jiwoon’s capabilities to protect Suha. Jiwoon himself does not have confidence in that. And yet Jiwoon insists on keeping Suha. BIG BETA CUCK LOSER ENERGY. You cannot have what you cannot keep. You should not be longing for what you cannot keep. Get your shit together and be able to take care of Suha. Maybe then you deserve to be with him as much as you act like you do. Just sickening bro. You can’t protect him and him just being with you has his ops trying to hurt him even more than they were before he was with you. And what do you do instead of worrying about becoming stronger/strong enough to fight his ops? You worry about taking away his freedom to try and hide him away from your ops like the loser you are. Jesus he was such a loser. Look, I’ll be real with you……. A whole lot about Jiwoon reminded me of Rosie in the worst way possible. Like Rosie he was toxic abandonment issues personified. Like Rosie he had serious mental health problems to work out through. He lied to, manipulated, and exploited Suha so many times in the name of his extreme insecurities. Then when confronted, he felt no remorse and still insisted he was right. Poor Suha who is already carrying so much baggage and trauma is having his trust betrayed again and again and for what bro? So that you can be with him Jiwoon? You don’t want Suha being a well adjusted and mentally healthy individual because you aren’t one yourself? He literally said some shit about how Suha has people who love him and he doesn’t and why can’t Suha just love only him and isolate himself from the rest of the world to make Jiwoon feel better about the fact that he thinks Suha will leave him? Throwing up in my fucking mouth right now bro. There is actually so much more shit I could talk about Jiwoon’s character in particular, but I’ll stop there because I’m getting super annoyed just writing this. Whatever. Jiwoon was hella bad and Suha deserved so so sooooo much better. But I understand why they remained together. What I don’t understand though, is why the story ended without Jiwoon promising to do things to get better of change his ways. All we end with is Jiwoon (half-heartedly) agreeing with Suha that what he did was wrong— something that he is obviously only doing because Suha is back in his arms after abandoning him once. Bro, it’s just very clear to me that Jiwoon will 10000% repeat these types of toxic actions because there was no fucking resolution to the problems they stem from. Suha eventually just got a little lonely again and very very horny again and felt sad for him since he was hospitalized as a result of their break and was like “meh, let’s take him back”. Had Suha agreed to take him back with the condition being that Jiwoon get therapy, that’d be one thing. Is Suha agreed to take him back under the condition that Jiwoon sans therapy try to fix his mental problems himself, that would not have been a good one either but at least it would have been respectfully mid. But no, just to leave it like that? Gross as fuck. Upsetting moves by the author. Lol, that took so much out of me that there is barely any room left in this review for me to talk about anything else about the story haha. Um, let’s see. Suha was a hot bad bitch power bottom and we loved to see it. Art was nice. Ugh, lol I don’t even want to talk about any good parts I’m so annoyed. Haha, we’ll let’s just say there were good parts or whatever but nothing enough to overshadow the bad. Lowkey wish I could unread this lol. It gets a 9.1 P.S. the author says she is writing side stories featuring the red head villain and Suha’s protective older brother figure ad the couple. that’s the most sickening and unfunny thing I’ve hear in week. remember how I said she was sick? and considering the way she handled the main story, there’s no way in HELL I’d trust her to handle this side story (which requires even more care than the main story did!) even remotely decently.

Jesus Christ bro this shit became damn near INSUFFERABLE towards the end . I can’t stand few things more than an author who doesn’t know when to stop!!!!! I was fucking with the story for a good while. It was a better than average run of the mill revenge plot with very pretty art and a romance that made me giggle a bit every now and then. That all changed with the end of the main story aka the “first season”. I put “first season” in quotation marks because I get annoyed by people who create seasons as haphazardly as this one. The first season is 86 chapter and the second season is 39 chapters….. bro. Come on now. The “second season” isn’t even HALF the length of the “first season”! How that work? Also, that’s with me being extremely generous and counting the epilogue chapters as the second season— which they really aren’t. So then the second season is actually 18 chapters? Soooooo sick and disgusting. Because when I tell you that those 18 measly chapters genuinely ruined the whole entire story for me!!!!! Like babe, you couldn’t have just let those 18 chapters stay in the drafts? If we could have cut out at least 13 of those 18 chapters (the specific 13 chapters where we decide not to kill evil step sister but instead make her suffer) I could have given this story a as high as a 9.4. If we trimmed fat and got rid of 2 more of those chapters, and then cut out that ridiculous interaction the MC has with God at the very end of the epilogue, I could go even as high as a 9.45. But because we kept those 13 chapters of trying to make the evil step sister suffer and we had that ludicrous interaction with God at the end of the epilogue, this story gets one million points off for real. One out of the two of those things would have already gotten it many many points off, but both of them? Hell nah; I can’t even give this shit a baseline 9.3 anymore. The main character was so woefully unrelatable in a super duper bad way. She was actually so petty and gross and actually evil (derogatory) at times. She was trying to do the “I’m a villainess (slay!

I have never held this much hatred for a BL before. Scratch that, I’ve never held this much hatred for any webtoon at all before. This may be my least favorite BL and least favorite webtoon of all time right now. There were so many things wrong that I won’t list them all. Actually, I will barely list any because I’m too annoyed to want to write a real review for this. Let’s just say, that if I was a waitress and found out that the author of this story was sitting at one of my tables, I’d spit in her food before sending it out to her table. That’s pretty disgusting, right? That’s to mirror how disgusted I was while reading this story. There were good things about this story. Many. But the bad things outweigh the good so incredibly much that I will have to refrain from even mentioning those good things from the main review. I LOATHE Sungtae, heart, mind, and soul. He is actually the worst. Not on a play play way, but I’m a so deathly serious and for real way. Like actually truly and really the worst. His “bullying” went for beyond bearable within the first couple of chapters. And the “bullying l doesn’t ever actually stop, not even down to the very last chapter of the story. The love interest for the second couple is not nearly as bad in the slightest, but like Sungtae, he is undeserving of his lover. This author has a serious problem with keeping power dynamics balanced. The word “toxic” doesn’t even truly begin to cover it for this main couple’s relationship….. I view this piece of literature as dangerous to even be out on the streets lest ANYONE take anything away from this or even subconsciously take nay of it in….. Okay, I’m done. I really don’t want to say anything more. I’m so done with this. Trying to put it behind me, lol. It gets an 8.5 (NOTE: didn’t think about the score too hard). P.S.: this may already be clear from the review, but this I was reminded of my past relationship with my abuser SO many times while reading this in ALL the worst ways. P.S.: despite this story being horrible, both Jinwoo (the MC) and Minyung (the bottom of the second couple) were adorable little babies to me!!! I loved them both so much they were cute and funny! Both of them also has love interests that did not deserve them at all.

This is the very worst thing I’ve read in a good while….whew, it took me so long to finish it too. I kept scrolling as fast as I could to get through the last one third of it but it still took me days. It’s the kind of bad where at a certain point I stop tallying things that are wrong with it in my head while reading it, because I think “there’s so many things wrong with it that I’m not going to try and list them all in the review”. Like, way too many things…. I literally just tried to list a few as examples, but then backspaced all that cuz it was too much lol. So instead of taking about the story in this review I will say this instead: I have GOT I stop reading recs from the “modern josei hetero-romance manwha” reading community. They have really bad taste lol. This is at least the third highly rated red off there’s that I’ve really really disliked a lot. And many other highly rated ones? I barely enjoyed. It was difficult for me to wrap my head around it at first, because this community has some overlap with the otome isekai reading community, but i am just now coming to terms with the fact that I think the portion of the OI community that overlaps with the modern josei hetero-romance manwha community is probably reading OI’s in a completely different way than myself…. But that’s something to think more bout later. Anyway, this was bad. Surprisingly bad. It gets a 8.9. P.S.: Gari deserved so much better. This is one of the worst cases of 2nd ML > 1st ML I have ever seen tbh.