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Run away or die. If I am alone and no one is there for me, I rather die. You can never change what happen to you and if the people hurt you maybe realize how awful they are, forgiveness is different from what they already taken from you... And that's your value as a person because this memory will keep reminding you how little you've been treated by the people closes to you. I know cause I too was dealing with this disease and I somehow found myself suicidal just remembering how bad I was treated. I even lock myself on my room just to hide my urges or at least release attacks when I am triggered.