THIS HURTS ME DEEP WITHIN MY SOUL PLEASE AT LEAST MAKE CAPO MEET JIN ONE LAST TIME
i'm on chapter 5 currently, bro WHAT IS THIS.
IT'S SO UNHINGED TO THE MAXIMUM LEVEL WHAT IS HAPPENING?
AND THE ART? amazing.
Beautifully and well written story, the portrayal of trauma was emotional and realistic, I adore the main characters and I loved every single bit of them together
OH MY GOD SHE HAS HETEROPHOBIA NOW GUYS
oh thats no…
it..it’s a joke… promise
LMAOOO I KNOW SORRY I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY
This manwha was… a rollercoaster.
The way it made me relate to Dahye (minus the brother part) and sympathize with her, the way I shed a few tears for her and felt so bad for her, I’m just so glad she was able to get her happy ending in the end.
As a manwha in the psychological genre, I’d say the author did a good job on knowing how to write and handle mental illness and making the characters (some) human-like.
I have to give it to the artist Face Park for drawing some of the most insane looking panels and the creativity/emotional turmoil they were able to express through colors, compositions and expressions really popped off.
The rating of this manwha doesn’t give it justice — but then again, I can see why it was rated so low for how some of the scenes were extremely disturbing to the reader, especially how Dowoon (her brother) treated her because of his worsening schizophrenia.
The whole family, mainly the mother, was so damn infuriating and frustrating to deal with, sometimes I could feel Dahye’s anger through the screen. The mother never listened to her daughter until the end, even when her own son literally slashed her face, she still couldn’t believe her son had totally gone insane. And that is so messed up (for lack of a better word) but also sad to see. This was mostly caused by the grandma and her superstitious tendencies but also the misfortunes the mother had to go through during her pregnancies.
Unfortunately, only the father was redeemable gradually going through the story. It was pretty nice seeing as how he became more lenient and defendant on Dahye as time went on. Ngl, I would be lying if I didn’t feel kind of content when he beat Dowoon’s ass the first time. Considering it was due to Dowoon’s schizophrenia that he acted this way, it was kinda excessive to abuse him, and honestly, the parents should’ve gotten him the treatment he needed way earlier had they listened to Dahye’s words.
As for the side characters, I wish they had more involvement in the story, especially towards the end.
I wanted to see Ga-eun and/or Yoo-Beom rushing to Dahye’s aid (they already did, but it’s a different situation) and just them having more interactions about what happened in that house, to be more fleshed out other than being labeled as ‘Dahye’s bestie’ and ‘Dahye’s rich boyfriend’. It was kind of disappointing there weren’t more POVs of the side characters and what they thought, their actions, etc. It was mostly from Dahye’s perspective. The point was only to show her and her family’s side I guess.
I also wished Dahye told her boyfriend about what her brother did to her. To him, it was probably just a really vague message that yeah he’s insane yaddy yadda, aside from that, he doesn’t really know what the brother did to her.
It would give me the biggest closure if the author decided to put more chapters or panels into the ending other than a tiny time-skip.
To be honest, it would’ve been really great if they added a chapter or two after the whole attempted murder ordeal. To me, the ending would’ve been more satisfying had some loose ends been tied, like how the brother literally came onto Dahye and some of his actions were kind of glossed over. (If I’m making sense. I’m referring to the times he attempted or did the unthinkable to her)
Other than that, it was also batshit crazy to see him gouging out his eyeballs in retaliation to his schizophrenia possibly. When he said sorry to Dahye at the end, maybe it was in the back of his mind that he finally gained some control to say what he needed to say — a state of normalcy for a few seconds. Of course, just to mention, his actions were unjustifiable, and a simple sorry won’t fix everything. It was just like Dahye said. Sometimes you wanted to punch this guy to the curb, yet sometimes you can’t help but feel sorry for him. His schizophrenia got the better of him and it took his family along with him.
Dahye was lucky to be able to run away, and overall, this manwha was just as good as it was horrific, and that needs an applause in its entirety.
This was a lengthy review, I probably couldn’t write down everything I wanted because I binge-read this all in a day so I’ll try my best to organize my thoughts more thoroughly next time.
If you plan on reading this manwha, brace yourself for all the shit that’s about to go down. Thanks for reading!!
This hurts me because I feel like the author will make it so Jin meets Capo while he's unconscious, so they will never get to actually share their verbal interaction in months
SPOILER
Chaerin is conscious when Jin rescues him, and SPOILER SPOILER they have a little confession scene it seems. Charin pushes for a confession.
THANK GOD I WAS SCAREF
It gets better than that.
SPOILERS FOR 25 based off of MTL
After the confession Jin was malfunctioning due to confusion about what Charin was from him because of Charin's previous suicide threats. So Charin pretty much spins it to him as he's just super horny so he won't kill himself if he has sex with Jin while crying on him.
They end up having sex with Charin (unlike with Hyehan) fully participating, i.e kissing him, touching himself. The only part that's kind of sad in the chapter is after Charin ominously tells Jin to finish inside because he was to 'cover it' and after he does he puts more inside. Which Jin thought it was because Hyehan taught him that (since Hyehan led him to believe he and Charin had been having loving sex) but Charin's revealed to be crying. Jin calms him down a bit by talking nonsense but Charin starts shaking again we he mentions just the two of them. This led me to believe Charin won't tell Jin he's pregnant and if he even lives far along enough to give birth he won't tell Jin Hyehan impregnated him.
After they finish they talk a bit, Jin has big plans of what they'll do and Charin pokes holes in his 'plan' and when Jin asks Charin for his ideas Charin starts off by establishing Jin may not even like him romantically (I like that Charin was serious about wanting to get know Jin). Charin's starts off with getting off the pentatonic but before he can continue he noticed roboGF behind Jin.
I hope this gives you guys a little hope.
OMG thank you! I've only seen clips of ch. 25 on Weibo T w T
What, Jin thinks Charin liked snake guy? That's so horrible :(
He suffered so much by his hand and Jin thinks they were lovers? I'm getting even more sad for Charin T-T
Actually that part was actually funny it happens next chapter but....
While fighting Jin, Hyehan realizes Jin is the person in Charin's letters. He decides to goad him by telling him and Charin have been having crazy amounts of sex and Charin enjoyed it. Jin retorts by telling him if Charin enjoyed it, it's fine but Jin actually is upset about it which leads him to go straight to trying to cut off his dick when he gets the upper hand.
Jin's confusion more or less in due to his inability empathize with Charin l can't blame him and I can't blame Charin either. Jin was kicked out of the daycare because of that flaw, Jin doesn't even understand his own emotions he calculates everything he says to Charin to aim for his desired outcome (Charin not dying).
Yeah, i went back to chapter 22 and 23
Jin believed so easily T-T
Hope you don't mind but i sent a message privately before lol I didn't want to drag on comments too much with my ramblings xD
No pls drag on , it's entertaining and I'm learning a lot
omg xDXDDD
Most part was just ranting how snake guy is a rapist who even made Jin believe Charin liked doing with him... he even dared to imply that Charin because he is an Elite body so needed to accept " his fate " so he could live. And that Charin would became unhappy/depressed if he wasn't being dicked down by him....
This irked me because he was raping Charin??? And Charin mental took a tool and was seeing himself as just a piece of meat? .... THE NERVE OF HIMMM it really angered me.
Charin is trying to be alive for Jin.
Hey, after some digging maaaaybe Jin doesn't have the notion snake guy and charin were doing loving sex ... Charin does say to him he had it rough so ...
It seems Jin uses kr slangs and it's hard to translate those using mtl.
But i'm not korean. We can only confirm after english translation of chapter 23 releases it ... where he reunites with Charin.
Hey, after some digging maaaaybe Jin doesn't have the notion snake guy and charin were doing loving sex ... Charin does say to him he had it rough so ...
It seems Jin uses kr slangs and it's hard to translate those using mtl.
But i'm not korean. We can only confirm after english translation of chapter 23 releases it ... where he reunites with Charin.
damn i thought i could delete duplicated reply lol
Yeah, Hyehan really demolished Charin. If I was born with extra erogenous zones and raped for weeks on end, I'd also feel like just a piece of pleasure meat . Thank god Charin toughed it through like a champ thanks to Jin's letter. The good thing to come out of this is that Charin is finally willing to confess, instead of letting his pride and masculinity complex get in their way like usual. The two of them has been horny for each other for a long time.
Hyehan is a dick and I think Jin can see through his bs for the most part. Though it's so funny to me that Charin's confession confuses Jin so much hahah. I know Tehir and the other guys from kindergarten called him a psychopath who struggles with empathy, but I'm wondering if he's just autistic. He's seems cold and nonchalant, but he does care about his team. But he makes other neurotypicals uncomfortable, so Charin has literally beaten into him that he needs to mask how smart he is by acting like a complete moron/fool.
And the rape baby?? I didn't see it coming in the first chapter, but at this point the concept of receptors and omni-breeders in itself is giving unhinged omegaverse lol. Now that I think of it, Charin is basically kinda a hermaphrodite huh. But fr, can't he get an abortion, or was that buried 90 years ago along with all the women Hyehan doesn't deserve to be so happy about it...
Man this series is wild. It's hard to know what to expect out of the worldbuilding, and I when a story can keep me guessing. I sooo hope Charin makes it out of this alive TT TT. Jin + him are so cute together, and I'm such a sucker for the golden retriever (Jin) x tsundere cat (Charin) dynamics.
Jin Charin has my heart. Their mutual pinning, being the reason of life of each other.
uGH SO BEAUTIFULL
Snake guy i only wish death. Bah-bye asshole.
Yeah, Autistic Jin makes sense too ! And even though they were poor his childhood with the gang was happier than the one he was having in the daycare. He is fooling himself to be dumb but he seems genuinely happy having that simple life.
Oh man, the unwanted pregnancy, i really felt the author was cruel with that one.
I do think they have abortion in their world, i mean they are sci fi world, but i don't see any bl comics with mpreg/omegaverse that actually let them abort. They always end s up magically accepting even thought they didn't want to get pregnant
Past!Jin being an actual psychopath will never not be funny. They said it that way but his mannerisms definitely put him closer to the spectrum of psychopath than autistic, he has lack of empathy, calculated mannerisms, inability for form true relationship etc. New!Jin shows the same qualities but he was able to 'fix' himself a little by iintergrating instead of trying to dominate but the only thing that really changed is that he found something that interests him which was Charin.
Charin being honest has been so cute, during the end of the chapter when he's flirting with Jin he ears and neck were completely red. That fact that after kissing has been a no-no with Hyehan but with Jin he was not only constantly trying to kiss but also calling Jin name the entire time was sweet.
My current theory is that Charin won't tell Jin about the pregnancy at all. He'll let Jin believe the baby is his (if he makes it that long) but I doubt he'll try to abort just because Charin himself was a rejected child. I hope there's a happy ending in store for them, Charin doesn't necessarily have to die for Jin to go to the security place Charin's sick and Jin's looking to cure him and Tehir' s playing it as 'I want to torture you' but we know he likes Jin so he might try to strike a deal.
OMg YES it's so cute!! I love honest Charin and I want MAURR