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I think Pado still like our tiny baby uke, but trying his best to forget him, and been staying away from him (we also get a flashback when uke was criticizing Pado for liking him, I don’t exactly remember but he definitely said stuff like Stay Away From Me!)
And I guess we’ll be getting Pado’s pov too soon acter in later chps. As far as I know, this one will have a lot of angsts, fights, misunderstandings,
and tears.
And uke’s only regret was not treating Pado right but I guess he doesn’t have the intention to have a romantic rs with him.
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If my rusty ass brain is translating correctly, the silver hair dude has some kidnapping cases…and he might be one with the most extreme obsessive disorder (I mean, he’s kinda timid, and shy since his brother has been belittling him for a long time) but he’s definitely an equal jerk as much as his brother is, or worse.
And it’s said he is used to those deadly tortures (mentally, I guess?), so WE CAN JUST PRAY FOR THE GREAT LORD MAY HAVE MERCY ON OUR BOY.
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Generally, since I'm a psychology major student, that kind of almost patch testing is quite common because we have to diagnose and identify the real deal later. and I was always diagnosed with top tier trust issues after every single testing that even my professor had to call in a meet up with me to check up if I actually have one of those disorders.
And if you think that the to be psychologists students have none of the mental issues, you are definitely wrong. Most of us are fully diagnosed with mental exhaustless, mild depression and moderate anxiety at some rate. But trust issues are further problem since trust is the most fundamental case in building a foundation with your patient later if you want to build up your reputation for your career.
And what's funnier is that I immediately figured it out where those issues came directly from, gosh, I've reading them so much and they literally traumatized me unknowingly.
Thus, I'm reading ongoing series at once and not multiple ongoing series. And this one got me thinking bazillion like "Why their relationship was advanced so quickly? Why the seme is nice? Even though he seems to dislike the uke's cheerful side, why is he keeping up with him? Who's that punk that saw our precious boy out of the seme's car and what's he gonna shit about that? etc..."
Lol /TДT)/
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Respectfully, if you're legit developing trust issues from reading bl, you need to learn how to separate fiction from reality asap. There's no answer to your why's other than that's what the author wants to do. Really. There's no higher being or moral reason compelling them to do so. If the author wanted, they could even kill the characters in the next chapter. No one is out to personally put you in distress. These are just tropes to keep the plot going.
Hope you're okay tho
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You have a point, but do you where do all of those concepts and personalities trait were inspired from? FROM REAL PEOPLE and real cases. We have a saying in our major, if something's bad in fiction, there is worse in reality. And if you are asking a psychology 3rd year student to separate between fiction and reality, there is only a thin line between what's real and what is not, what we believe to not what not to believe.
And yes, at time, I read them only using 30% of my attention focus span and 70% on background noise since I don't want them to get to my mind. But damn, there is a thing called subconscious mind, absorbing, collecting, signaling every single vibe, energy, emotion we draw towards. And it is only can be healed by therapy or consultation session.
I also thank for your worries but rather than I'm spreading awareness to those some readers who dwell so much and feel so much.
fyi for everyone: If you want to study well and memorize all your notes in less than 1 study session which is impossible, so better possibility is to train your brain to actually and genuinely accept the information by giving attention and focus for 70% and let the bg noise handle the rest 30%, and the magic begins.
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I just wanted to share my thoughts on Dohu, and I'm a psychology student myself.
Unless, more than autistic, he might have Alexithymia or Schizoid Personality Disorder(SPD) , but since he can understand emotions and also know how to express them, my assumptions stopped right there.
And as for me, he is just different from others; even though he dislikes the mask he had to wear, he's still doing a pretty great job, putting on with annoying people and being a socially generous person. To think more about it, even for us, we had to smile at times when we really didn't want to and had to give a hand to someone, even though we were also struggling ourselves. It's important to remember that everyone has their own unique way of navigating social situations and expressing emotions. It's possible that what may seem unusual or challenging for one person is simply their way of coping with the world around them.
In the end, we all have multiple masks to put on when needed, just as Dohu has. He wears them to be seen as a normal person who is kind and easygoing, and we also do.
We didn't really look deep into these social norms and just followed them to be labeled as normal and kind, but if we really had a chance to be ourselves, many things might have changed, better or worse.
"The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change." - Carl Rogers
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They are the literal "He was sunshine, and I was midnight rain" couple.
Tbh, I was horrified to continue reading this after a few panels of chp.1 since it involved with violence, murdering and past traumas and y'all would know too, the prettier the art style is, more toxic it can get.
Little did I know that it would turns out all too well. I'm over the clouds for both of them.
so soft, so fluffy and so wholesome plus, mc and ml were drop dead gorgeous.
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As a 3rd year psychology major myself, since from day one, I surely sense manipulation from Yuri all along. Over his foul mouth, what's worse is that he doesn't feel bad since he thinks that Seonwoo deserves to be told such words like "Manwh0re" which is a direct verbal harassment and sexual assaulting and can count as catcalling.
Also, he might have disorders like Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD) towards Seonwoo which is extremely dangerous if those disorders were happening in a real life and with a real person, I must warn.
He's still insecure and anxious even when they are dating. Saying such harsh words is again direct verbal abusing, humiliating and shaming.
Almost everything about him is in wrong except his genuine love for Seonwoo even though it looks like toxic positive love.
And his parents are the worst, I must say. The parents and environment shape a child's personality almost up to 70% before at the age of 7-8. Which comes no wonder he behaves like that either it's not a surprise the way he is. NOOOO, it's such a big no, if only his parents were good at parenting and give him time even less than 50%, the outcome can be differed from the way he is now.
Yet the relationship is toxic, suffocating and unstable, the author and the illustrator just tried to give them a happy ending because it must be. This one has so much potential yet failed to meet the expectations with rather repetitive frustrating manners, demanding quarrels and endless trust issues. Yes, they are happy, but they will never be 100% happy and peace is never was an option.
At least, I'm glad Seonwoo is trying meditation and Yuri has been doing it all along. I'm happy for them yet feel ashamed by wasted potentials.
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Thankkk youu (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ
Tbh, he's such a wet blanket and his EQ might probably lower than a kid's. He can't control his emotions nor his mouth. I wonder one day; his mouth would have killed him if he ever exists in real world.
And of course, Seonwoo with extreme pushover personality is one of a kind frustration after all.
Their relationship is entirely built by two inferior people which is pretty wasted, No healing arc hits different.
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on chapter 8 Yuri legit called him pathetic :)) I don't think the author is trying hard to make it work between them. In fact, Yuri has been a foul mouth, manipulator and an ass, hasn't changed since day 1, and that itself makes their relationship kinda a miracle, and that is how the author wanted it to be and that is the author's end goal from the start.
But I too believe that is a poor interpretation :'> like how does that even work in real life, like constant bullying and manipulation towards your lover is a no go to me, not to mention all the potential mental disorders that you've just listed all above make their relationship impossible.
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I can see where they're getting all those inspirations from, but they reallybneed to get a hold on it!
Stop, the disorders ain’t romantic, and get over with it without getting proper consultation, how the heck two people with two different mental disorders could ever get a happy ending before they could heal themselves, it’s just down right ridiculous lol:
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Y'all. I've read any kind of the most toxic relationships that one can ever draw yet this one is a total out of reach.
I have love-hate relationship with each of them, in some chapters, I wish I could give them the biggest warm hug yet in some I want to slap the hell out of their faces and lock them up in the prison cell for the rest of their lives.
MC and ML surely have their each of own mental disabilities, trust me.
I literally thought ‘that’s all it, my my last read, and then, boom, here I am, still sobbing after hours for how good the plot was written, how perfect the characters tied with each other.
Tragic? Yes!
Beautiful? Yes!
Sad? Yes!
Perfectly written? Y E S !!!