Kirovlovescxxkies's Manga

This reminds me so so so so so so so sooooooo much of "the black lotus" art styles the same, rude seme, pitiful uke, seme regrets, uke gives up. So sad yet so beautiful.

OK SO MY FULL ACTUAL GOOD REVIEWS FT SPOILERS:
To start with ch 1-10 it seemed very rush not much to it honestly...it had a hook although so i continued to read it..mostly just rape and mind games i was very confused on some parts because of the rushing it would go from Kyungsoo being sad to happy as hell with no explanation to why he was randomly happy so to say the least very confusing.
11-20 same thing just rape but the story seemed to slow down (in a good way). It made chapters 1-10 kinda start making sense and in those chaps you can see yules obsession for kyungsoo and "love" (if you can even call it that tch) become more obvious.
21-30 becomes really interesting, kyungsoo starts to obviously become more mentally damaged and brainwashed and overall confused
20-35 it starts speeding up again and lots of unnecessary like actual random things not even joking that didn't progress or "unprogress" the storyline :/ just random things added that make you even more confused if not bored...it felt like the author was just giving up bluntly on it and had to add weird things in it just so people can wanna read it more to find out why somethings happened even tho nothing of some parts were actually added that went with the storyline.
36-45 most of this was focused on Yules brother raping kyungsoo which was a very confusing add in because it doesnt really add to the story its just there? I was hoping in those parts kyungsoo escapes everything, Yule realizes what he did to kyungsoo was bad, hyuk gets a new lover etc. The amount of things that couldve been added that wouldve madoe more since towards to end of the plot but it just went ver the authors head baffles me
46-54 most definitely probably my favorite parts, kyungsoo actually was happy and Yule realizes he fucked up for a bit...again random things in we didnt need but i saw progression in the authors confidence.
54-end my final and last review of this wow has this manhwa been interesting but heres my final review...i disliked this very much, the ending made no sense to why kyungsoos ending had to be with Yule and not just himself when chapters before that show him most likely having a self ending? I love plot twist but theres been way too many in this manhwa that not having a plot twist itself is a plot twist...i dont get or like the ending whatsoever and i get not everything ends happy but the ending wasnt realistic or made sense at all in the slightest.
The sister was making me more mad then she ever had in the manhwa in these chapters again forcing kyungsoo to stay with someone toxic.
The whole kyungsoo crying over yule almost dying then not giving a fuck was also confusing then him being mad at hyuk then fine with seeing his was also most confusing like what the fuck? Then shows Kyungsoo doing fine but no explanation of therapy...new lover...friends? It made no sense :/ dont get me started on how it went over everyones heads that Yules friends whole storyline was raping kyungsoo but yet thats it? They dont get an epilogue of how it went after the Yule stabbing himself ordeal? Nothing? Like can we know if they felt guilt or wanted yule to die...? Anyways i give this 3/5 as it in a way was interesting and not like other manhwa bls romanticizing rape, depression, self harm and PTSD as something that bypasses quickly or something ok. The reason im not giving a 5 is because anyone that read this at least twice will realize how confusing it actually is and how theres really no plot.

But i hope u guys enjoyed my review lol! (Mostly me ranting about how confusing it is LMAO-) but remember everything stated is my opinion :)) you may enjoy(ed) reading this but it wasnt really all that for me. Saying goodbye to this manhwa for good after reading it 3 times and leaving my best and honest review over how i actually feel in all total of reading it many times :) i do this do i can calculate my actual feelings towards the manhwa~ but this is my final goodbye and last official read to this book <3 if u made it thus far in my review u are a real one!

Tbh..this is 1/5 top list for saddest manga i have read on here.
The raw emotions in the drawing and storyline can make a grown man or a newborn baby cry if read to them. This was beautiful tragic story.