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Awww that's so sweet of you

That's possibly the kindest thing I've read in weeks.

Unless theyre my sibling, in which case fuck you lover im sending it on the dot

Git gud

They're more bored than I am on a Tuesday afternoon

Was divorce not an option??
You'd better cut all ties with him, emotionally disconnect from him and come to terms with the fact that he will never ever be a father or a decent person and there's nothing you can do to change him (it's not up to you, it's up to him and he will never be a better person), so accept the fact that you will never have a loving father like in these manhwas (unless ur mom remarries but it still won't heal the hurt you went through). But that's okay, life is unfair. You may have had the worst father, but there may be other good things in your life that you could be grateful for.
Idk, my therapist said that where there is light, there is always a shadow. One cannot exist without the other, so even if you have bad things happen in your life, there will always be some good in it. The important thing is to look at both sides. And not to dwell in the unfortunate and bad things happening in your life.
"Why is it only me?" kind of thinking won't help you a bit. It'll further drown you in a victim mentality. It robs you of your strength to take ownership of your life. The best thing you can do is give up. Give up hoping for a loving father, give up wanting to have a normal family like everybody else. If you can do this, it'll help you accept your life the way it is and move on.

P.S I said all this bcs I relate to you.
I also had a fucked up childhood, alcoholic, violent father who beat the shit out of my mom, cheated as well. Then my mother turned out to have narcissistic personality disorder, and mentally, emotionally abused me until I ran away from home at the age of 20. Then, there's my older brother who beat the shit out of me, didn't treat me like a human being.

Now I'm 26, diagnosed with bipolar II disorder, and a bunch of complex trauma that I can't resolve on my own. Can't tell the difference between reality and my imagination. Can't hold a regular job, have anxiety and major depression and all.

I was medicated, and received therapy and did a lot of healing on my own. But the trauma feels too deep to heal completely. It always creeps up. But I know I can overcome this. My life has been fucked up and but there were so many good things that happened as well. I know I deserve to live a normal life. So do you. There is hope out there. There's more to life than being a victim of our lives. So yeah, if you've had traumatic childhood, go seek a psychiatrist and a therapy. It really helps.

Only you can heal yourself, so work on yourself. Anywyas, have a nice day!

this reply is actually so sweet, I kinda thought that it would be a mean one when I got the notification haha it scared me a bit.
divorce isn't really an option where I live because divorced women are viewed as "slutty" and "available for men" so she had to stay and endure the mental and emotional torment.

I've cut all ties with him despite him trying to manipulate me into staying on good terms with him

oh my gosh I'm so sorry to hear that, reading this really breaks my heart! I hope you're in a better place mentally and physically, you deserve to be happy and I pray to every power in the world that you get to be truly and purely happy and at peace

I relate to you. Fucked up father's and all. Mine has gambling addiction and my bought us up all on her own. It's sad when your earliest memories are fighting and trauma. Gives you a melancholic air of a life you never lived. But you know @nyx is right if you are given bad things in life you are given good as well. It could be your talent. Your friends or pets some silver lining. Don't Dwell on things you can't change but I do encourage you to reconcile with your trauma. Grieve for your lost childhood. Cry for the girl no one else cried for and her know. That she is alright and that she will be loved and be safe and be happy. That child deserves it if not from someone else then from her future self. You got this champ.

Ohhh that's terrible. I'm guessing you live in a patriarchal society? Hmm, It makes me so mad to know that women are still treated as a 'lesser' being born to serve men in some parts of the world, and are only worth something if it involves a man. ☹☹

I'm glad to hear that you've cut all ties with him!!! That piece of trash doesn't deserve a sympathy or be treated with respect just bc he's a 'father'

I hope you have other valuable people, memories and things in your life that you are grateful for and makes your life worth living.

1. Any cheating? Betrayal?
2. Love triangle?
3. I heard uke has sex with others??? What chapters and does he stop? Is it a one time? Or it happens a lot?

Does uke or Seme sleep around? Thank you.

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Henry is james tyrell the killer. He lost his memory after beging stab by richard after Buckingham death ,we never knew hoe he regained his memory as king henry but he doesn't want that name anymore neither he wants the name James so he became a man without name.

Now remember richard gave Buckingham his king ring as protection well Buckingham before dieing he gave it to james. Henry sinces day one he met richard had a mission save richard from darkness.

So after ruchard got to know he was a rape child not york son he mets Henry thanks to whity the boar. There they talk and face things but unfortunately they never talk about there feels. What henry says is richsrd is his light his reason of living. And whity leave forever but richard decided to face Richmond to battle field in there meeting Henry and richard became friends again.

Last chapter we have the battle against Richmond now married to Beth he got alot of power so one by one richard alliance betrayed him he remined he and catseby fighting.

Then Richmond was informed thst richard is on a white horse so everyone is following the richard in white horse but the thing is our ruchsrd is riding a black horse.


Richard was injured and when they going to give him a final blow a man on a white horse with black hair saves him and guess who it is Henry (づ￣ ³￣)づ hebry had dyed his hair black to take richard place also he wore richsrd king ring. Richard was speechless seeing henry fighting but the best part was that henry says "I LOVE YOU RICHARD" that part made me scream st last he told him but it was his goodbye to richard too ╥﹏╥ henry had took richsrd place and everyone attacks him. Inthe mine time richard is unconscious and visited by Jeanne but this time Jeanne truns to richard. In the manga its not so clear but the anome made it clearer that was henry soul that truned into richard . In the end henry became richard . Its complicated but there soul became one. Infact richsrd kisses the other richard like St last richard accepted himself that's to the pure love of henry.


The end is sad henry dies due of the attacks,Richmond becomes king and richard is taken away by catseby when there riding the horse catseby tells richard to stay alive and richard before closing his eyes tells him he grain his wish but before he wants to sleep. It ends with richard sleeping in a field of white roses.

The flowers are the heart of his loved ones.

Question. On chapter 73, at the end of chapter 73, who is the one that said: Edward I love you?

Which Edward?

If it's 73 then it's little ed. Anne abd prince edward son. Henry grand son which richard loved . Richard didn't go with Buckingham due he loved little ed alot he wanted to protect he and anne till the end. After all little ed loved richard truly so did anne. So richard told edward he loves him. My theory is that edward character reminds him of henry beging good hearted and he is kind even to a dead bird. So richard wants to protect that kind and gentle child that loves him. Edward inherited henry kindness and personality. That's why richard got attached to the enemy child. Plus he respects anne too.