Ermmm, well sometimes I do feel like I want to disappear from this world (like die or something...) because of depression and stuff... I think, but I always find it really scary and I don't want to be in pain either. And I have some little sisters that kinda depend on me to so i can't just die like that out of no where... And they make me really happy sometimes too. Well i'm happy when I do the things I like a lot, and play with my sisters, and do random things at times too. Well yeah... I typed a lot I hope this is a good answer.... You're welcome! C:
Knowing that i have a future ahead of me full of surprises, love, friendship, family, and education makes me want to live on. I would never want to leave this planet because there is so much to live for. I never got to experience the feeling of being in love, so that is something i look forward to. Whatever makes you sad or angry now, will eventually get better. (:
Of course, Every single day I feel like disappearing, It's called hopelessness and depression. sometimes waiting for my fav manga chapter to come out is the only thing that keeps me going
I'm the third to reply-fuck I hate the # 3-but anyways my answer-my daughter-when I'm feeling like the world is ending and I can't bear it anymore I look at her sleeping face and calm down-even through chronic fatigue and dealing with a chronic back condition that runs in my family-plus depression and the learning disibilities that were the result of brain trauma during my birth-all things that dragged me down before-having my child gave me something bigger then myself to care for-and I get up no matter how tired or how badly my body hurts-in you don't have to have a child-which u shouldn't do until ur ready-although I didn't think I as ready either but I got ready quick when I looked in her eyes the 1st time and fell headlong into love-but if u can find something ur passionate about and pursue it-find something you can nurture-it helps
@Zoey Zoey Zoey,must being hard on u :-/ but Im happy u found love in ur daughter<3, I have a friend who used to be so sad and depressed then she got a child, now she looks happy and healthier <3 @ Hi, yeah depression sucks, I just feel disappearin on my family, Im too chicken to even think of death..I think life is beautiful, maybe we need to reach out or travel and discover life. @ ayu, yes u right, but those things feels so far away sometimes..thats why I need some motivation!! @Anonymous, so true that a fav manga can cheer one up, I was down when posted that, then saw there was update on TxS all 3 chpter and Im smilling like an idiot right now lol :-) thnk u guys, now I feel less lonely!
Thanx and I'm gals ur feeling better-and I'm glad death isn't something u dwell on cause it's so permanent-it's the end of everything you are now in everything you could be-no matter how broken up people who love you are when you die the world still moves on without you and even the most famous eventually be forgotten by the infinite that is time
Thanx and I'm gals ur feeling better-and I'm glad death isn't something u dwell on cause it's so permanent-it's the end of everything you are now in everything you could be-no matter how broken up people who love you are when you die the world still moves on without you and even the most famous eventually be forgotten by the infinite that is time-I think that more then people know it's not having a grasp on your purpose, being under stimulated, bored are one of the biggest causes of ennui, melancholia-having a reason to keep moving forward, having something to stimulate your brain and to keep u from being bored and neurotic-thinking back got all the hardships I had it wasn't nearly what others deal with-I was LD but really smart and I managed to not have really serious probs with my back for a long time and I'm finding wYs around it and new treatments-I always want to tell people when ur life feels the worst remember that there's a 99.9% chance so one has it worse and still making it-it helps me-I should google the first American to get a full face transplant-it's incredible how amazing that guy is-how he felt lucky even when he was without a face-also remember that got all the horrible fucks on the internet their are awesome people to connect with-some who might even share similar problems-ok now to finish finding the manga I want to read(￣^￣)ゞ
Well, thank you. I am trying to reach out to people but it doesn't seem to work very well. And I can't really travel because i'm not old enough yet. But I do think that life is beautiful and I try to treasure it by not killing things and stuff like that. Well thank you anyway for your reply. C:
ok, I need to ask something that has nothing to do with yaoi ^o^ what keeps you motivated and happy? do you ever feel the urge of disappearing?