Omg wait which chapter is it? I totally forgot about this (〜￣△￣)〜
Chapter 45 is when he said this but in nearly all the chapters that shows the future he is acting really distant and cold with Jian Yi and doesn't want him to touch him at all and beating him up as soon as he gets too close to him (which he doesn't do anymore in the recent chapters so it's sad to see that he will act like that again in the future...)
honestly I wouldn’t dwell on it if I were you, you have to remember that when zhan zheng xi said “don't really want to see him NOW", the author showed a shot of jian yi grossly digging into his underpants LOL, hence him only saying it cause he was really grossed out at the moment aka the author used for humor considering the context of what was happening. there are many chapters there where you can also see zheng xi being caring, taking care of jian yi whose drunk, worrying he disappeared again when jian yi used his shower etc. hence showing he doesn’t want him actually gone and he does love him but it’s scary to put himself out there again and fully trust.
also the author wrote those chapters before she even had the story fleshed out in her head at the time, she didn’t even know where she was going with the story, if she would continue it etc. it was just a story of comedic gags to her at first with no real plotline. hence why their characters act differently from now, zheng xi was written a bit more tsundere and she clearly changed that along the way when she started taking her own story more seriously and now mo guan shan is the tsundere with more of those characteristics etc.
so zheng xi may act a bit stand offish / occ in those chapters than what he does now but only because she hadn’t know she was going to write their past and write how their characters personality truly was, currently she has clearly fleshed out how she wants her characters to be and act more now. however it also important to note she ignores some key parts in those beginning chapters, for example when jian yi first says he was kidnapped, it’s said in a very humorous way where it’s really hard to believe which ultimately doesn’t make sense considering zheng xi already knew about jian yi nearly getting kidnapped twice so far now that she has written their middle school days — my point in this is to say, there are clearly plot holes and that the author seems to ignore a bit of some of her writing in the past/those chapter cause logically it makes no sense as to why zheng xi wouldn’t believe him. so I wouldn’t be surprised if the author were to ignore more bits of those chapters. plus zheng xi was heartbroken when he left, so it’s natural he’d feel a bit betrayed being left, feeling extremely hurt over it but it’s not something that lasts long. he’s way too in love with jian yi to let that hurt last.
which is also shown where the author draws them in other future chapters that weren’t in the beginning chapter / stages of her writing, such as the chapter specials during christmas or valentine’s day, which are more recent chapters in the recent years that the author takes more seriously. zheng xi and jian yi are hanging out and doing just fine in the future. he’s not ‘cold’ to him, spoils jian yi, even gives him an indirect kiss etc. they’re clearly doing just fine. and those are future chapters. not to mention the author has drawn many future illustrations of them officially together where they are french kissing and being sexually intimate. they’ll be just fine in the end. :)
That's very true. I guess re-reading the beginning of this story kinda made me anxious and I forgot about the most recent "in the future" chapters, I will try to find them again to see them being all lovey-dovey with each other haha
And yeah, that was one thing I was wondering about, if the author was conscious of the differences between how she had first portrayed the characters and how they are acting now and if she decided to just ignore her "first" chapters and continue with how she is picturing the characters now or if the story is going to change and will lead to the characters acting that way with each other without it seeming ooc... I really hope it's the former haha!
Thank you for your long reply, I was really unsure of how I should think about them since they are my favorite pair from this webtoon and your reply really helped me! (≧∀≦)
I've read the first couple of chapters again and now I feel bad for Jian yi because I had forgotten that in the future, Zheng xi and he are going to be separated for a long time and after they reunite Zheng Xi is going to treat him really coldly compared to how he is acting towards him now... I mean in one of the "future" chapter he said, "this guy was my best friend but he disappeared and I don't really want to see him now". Plus he seems to want even less physical contact with him which is a bit sad since he seemed to finally be reciprocating Jian Yi's feeling... I guess Jian Yi going away might have hurt him so he doesn't want to go through this again but it's a bit sad since Jian Yi always appears as the most lonely one out of the two and the one who loves the other the most...