Mixed Feelings

My rotten self wants him to end up with someone who is kind. My other self wants to respect him and his desire to have feelings for someone else that is true. It is depressing to think that you live in a world fictional to others, and now you understand, you don't even know if everything that have been until now were real. At the same time, my rotten self would just go "you too deep there lad, I hope he has a wonderful time."