He pushed L because he wants him to think he betrayed him. It’s like he wanted a reason for L to finally hate him bec if not L will mindlessly follow him again not bec of loyalty but again bec of guilt. So Blonde says he is a coward bec instead of saying those he chose to be the bad guy and just let L hate him just as so L will be free from all of this.
Also it’s an admission of defeat on his side coz it looks like they love each but in the end it got twisted and now L is no longer staying for him for love but bec of guilt. So seeing Blonde in the picture that’s his way of admitting defeat and finally giving him up.
He pushed L because he wants him to think he betrayed him. It’s like he wanted a reason for L to finally hate him bec if not L will mindlessly follow him again not bec of loyalty but again bec of guilt. So Blonde says he is a coward bec instead of saying those he chose to be the bad guy and just let L hate him just as so L will be free from all of this.
Also it’s an admission of defeat on his side coz it looks like they love each but in the end it got twisted and now L is no longer staying for him for love but bec of guilt. So seeing Blonde in the picture that’s his way of admitting defeat and finally giving him up.