I agree with you but why did you labeled it as "spoiler" tho?
Just in case someone who was only on like chapter one of it or hasn’t started it yet was looking through comments, I can’t remember if it doesn’t really give anything away or not in the beginning so I just wanted to play it safe ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
Oh about tht actually these recent comments will appear for this specific chapter. So those who've read the recent chapters can see recent comments.
If someone told me "I've repeated this exact scene like 100 times already and the repeat button is you dying - don't ask, i don't know how it works either. Anyways, I know what happens in the near future so let's stick together for now. Btw I love you." (which is not much), I'd trust them a whole lot more than ML who can't even say it when MC has basically figured it out and is asking him about it. The one and only downsides of the explanation would be the time needed to explain (which again is not much) and the repetitiveness of it (but that shouldn't matter too much bc everything else repeats as well).
Also, the ML is so overbearing ever since the beginning, even though they were not acquainted with each other before the apocalypse. So even if ML sees them as lovers, MC doesn't.
In my opinion, stress and anxiety only excuse the outburst of emotions in this recent chapter, not the way he's been treating MC since the beginning. I can't remember everything right now but the feeling I got from the earlier chapters is that the ML does not love the MC. The only two things that seem to matter to him are 1: MC's survival and 2: fucking MC. He doesn't really respect him in any way. It bothers me a lot that the vibe I get from him is "I need to protect my sex toy".
You are so right. In my mind though, I think the ML honestly sees the MC as even less than a sex toy, because the cons of the MC’s existence far outweighs the benefits. From the ML’s perspective, the MC is literally ruining his life and repeatedly causing him to die in such horrible ways that it’s giving him PTSD. Obviously none of that is the MC’s fault and the ML isn’t justified in his actions, but it still makes sense if he would actually kinda hate the MC. I think the romance/sex is more of a manipulation tactic, because I’m not personally convinced that the ML had any sort of attraction to the MC to begin with. I think that somehow along the way he realized that a romantic/sexual relationship established him more credibility with the MC and gave him easier control over him. The sex might be a bonus but isn’t really paramount. The main thing the ML cares about is his own survival. If it came down to the end and he had to sacrifice the MC to survive, I’d bet he’d throw him to the hoard in a second. But maybe I’m too cynical of the ML’s intentions before he went psycho and he at one point did actually have feelings for the MC ╮(￣=￣)╭
I totally see both of your guys’ points, I just like to hope for the best ┗( T﹏T )┛ I’ve definitely had those thoughts but I guess I’d just like to think he has real love for Hoyuj :’) I’m definitely gonna keep just thinking he has feelings for our baby and that his bad behavior is just a mix of PTSD and stress (cause if it is part of his PTSD that can make people act in crazy, irrational ways that they wouldn’t normally act) until proven otherwise. and Ima be so fr I totally forgot that he p much raped Hoyun n that’s something I despise in all BL and all contexts. I hate that it’s a reoccurring thing in this genre especially. I do have the brain of a goldfish so I forget easily when certain fucked up shit happens, so thank you for reminding me of that. I guess we’ll just have to see what his true intentions are :’) I hope for the best! Thanks to both of you for helping me take off my rose tinted glasses for a moment and to look at it more seriously. BUT THE GLASSES ARE GOING BACK ON FOR NOW. Have a great day (づ￣ ³￣)づ
It’s pretty obvious at this point that everytime our precious Hoyunie dies our ML regresses back with him. Not sure why or how obviously but it seems pretty obvious.
Now think about it, if you and the person you liked kept regressing back to the beginning everytime they died, you’d be fucking stressed mkay? You’d be confused n scsred, especially if the person you liked DIDNT REMEMBER that happening?
Our ML was so comfortable during the beginning because they had clearly done that part of the school god knows how many times at that point. He knew where the zombies were gonna be, how the survivors were going to act, where to get food and which places to be. Now (as he’s said) they’ve reached a point he hasn’t gotten to that many times so far. We can only assume that our Hoyun had died an unimaginable amount leading up to the part we are now. As Hoyun said, the banquet hall most likely has a lot of zombies. With our MLS flashback it’s pretty obvious that is the truth, and likely the reason our ML is so on edge. With that many zombies in just 3 stories of a building, that’s unpredictable asf with so many different possible outcomes. Plus judging from how clearly SCARED and NERVOUS our ML is, I take it that they’ve never made it past that part of the school, that something terrible always happens to Hoyun, and that they haven’t even made it that far enough times to even get a grasp on how things will work out.
For those of you saying “COMMUNICATION” “TALK IT OUT”. First of all, would YOU believe someone if they said “hey btw every time you die this whole thing restarts so just do as I say and you’ll live” ??? Cause I wouldn’t. That would sound like crazy talk. Second of all, I’m sure he’s tried the talking it out route in the past but we all know Hoyun, he doesn’t like to listen . He probably just went ahead on his own anyways? Who knows! That’s the beauty of this story, we’re getting more and more sneak peaks into the past and I cannot wait to see everything come to light.
And for those of you who are upset at our ML cause he’s “angry” and “scary” and “so mean” for no reason??? THERE IS CLEARLY A REASON???? I would be stressed asf too!! Σ( ￣□￣||)