a while back, i was in a really dark place. I'd been in it for a few years. I hated existing. It was painful, messy, and i simply wasn't strong enough to do it. it took a lot out of me. 2016-20 were my worst years - i turned into the worst version of myself, and everyday i look back on that, and feel an indescribable sadness. i contemplated suicide a lot. but, i was too scared, and that eventually became a different branch of self hatred. i never had that epiphany, thag defining moment where i knew my life was worth living, but im slowly getting there. even though it's difficult, im focusing on things that make me happy. even though it's a slow process, im focusing on things I want to live for. and im glad i hung in there long enough to come across this story. every so often, i find a gem like this that reminds me of the importance of life. thank you so much author. thank you hamin and somang, for reminding me of the things i should live for :,)
a while back, i was in a really dark place. I'd been in it for a few years. I hated existing. It was painful, messy, and i simply wasn't strong enough to do it. it took a lot out of me. 2016-20 were my worst years - i turned into the worst version of myself, and everyday i look back on that, and feel an indescribable sadness. i contemplated suicide a lot. but, i was too scared, and that eventually became a different branch of self hatred. i never had that epiphany, thag defining moment where i knew my life was worth living, but im slowly getting there. even though it's difficult, im focusing on things that make me happy. even though it's a slow process, im focusing on things I want to live for. and im glad i hung in there long enough to come across this story. every so often, i find a gem like this that reminds me of the importance of life. thank you so much author. thank you hamin and somang, for reminding me of the things i should live for :,)