Please know that it's not easy being a die hard fan of a novel, where you really root for the two of them to be together. And now that she has the chance to see them real life, she prolly thought 'I want them to be together in a way that i don't hurt the female lead. I hope they can be happy without any obstacles called the villainess which is me'. That is probably why she continues to avoid Ian and continues to root the two of them. Cause her only wish that haven't been granted is to have the two of then end up together.
Please know that it's not easy being a die hard fan of a novel, where you really root for the two of them to be together. And now that she has the chance to see them real life, she prolly thought 'I want them to be together in a way that i don't hurt the female lead. I hope they can be happy without any obstacles called the villainess which is me'. That is probably why she continues to avoid Ian and continues to root the two of them. Cause her only wish that haven't been granted is to have the two of then end up together.