Usually, I ignore long ass comments about this manhwa but I read every bit of this one because it made a lot of sense to me. Not the usual rants filed with spoilers and meaningless whining with psychological evaluation of either or both Seungho or/and Nakyum. Good job!
thank you, someone with a common sense
Please write more often!
Thank you. You explained it perfectly. You and I are literally thinking the same. Especially when it comes to Seungho. So many people read it from one characters point of view. It's like once he started to trip out they forgot the attraction they had towards the beginning. And considering his way of showing affection is sexual contact, because that's just how people showed their love for him in general.
I really appreciate reading your comment so much. Is filled with unbiased opinions and you came with facts from actually reading. You read both views and in between the lines.
With that being said, I think that Seungho is going to let him go. Mr. Kim may have given him an awakening. Also after hearing the end bits of their convo and walking away lets me know that he realizes what he did was wrong. I can't wait til the creator comes back. I'm excited.
I'm glad you mentioned the scene on the market that prompted Nakyum to go talk to In Hun about his plans for him.
I think it's an underrated interaction that gets lost because of the other more dramatic ones.
I was really reading comments just to find someone state the truth.
Like thank u for all the explanations... That's what I really think...
I was really mad at everyone writing about how they view their relationship and their personality... When it's way beyond the violence and rape...
I think this story is one of the best bl stories of all time.. Bcuz its shows the reality side Wiz no forced drama or cliche one....
The other two was twittering birds and killing stalking
I loved the last chapter! We had Nakyum finally exposing his conflicted feelings towards SH. But something very surprising also happened: NK is still waiting for his teacher to come back. And he somehow thinks he still has to sacrifice his freedom so his teacher will get the government position. That's a huge step back in NK's character development. Many stated that NK has finally realized how his teacher was selfish and used him after their last interaction. But it turns out NK still cherish him and is patiently waiting for him.
So what was all the point of SH making him face the truth and pushing him to confront his teacher? He did it but it looks like he did not learn anything from it. He just got depressed and reduced himself to SH's concubine while still longing for that learned shit. I personally never thought NK fully moved on from his story with Inhum but to know that he is still waiting for his come back is very upsetting.
Another very annoying thing in the last chapter was that panel of Nakyum crying like a baby while confessing his feelings. Was that really necessary? Can't he just talk without tearing up for once? Or just tear up without hysterically crying? It's a bit too much. The way his noona talks to him, her words to SH and how NK keeps crying and being so passive... I will end up thinking he's barely 15 at this point. He acts like a very innocent underage boy.
Honestly, I believe Nakyum just used the teacher as an excuse to still stay because he didn't want to confront his feelings for Seungho. His Noona figured it out and that's why she asked him to tell her the real reason why he wanted to stay and she told him his love for Seungho was just a ruse. The thing is, she asked him if his love for his teacher was the same as his love for Seungho and he realized it wasn't the same. I believe he would misunderstand and think his love for his teacher is the real one but it just might be adoration and idolisation. What he feels for Seungho is the real love because no matter how much he knows he has to despise him, he can't help but be drawn to him. I don't think that's Stockholm Syndrome because Nakyum is smart enough not to fall into Seungho's arms at the first sign of affection and it took him a lot to actually admit he has feelings for him. He didn't just blindly love him like he did that shitty teacher. He was always drawn to Seungho like a moth is drawn to a flame. He has always been entranced by him. His first wet dream was about Seungho. Sure, he imagined having sex with his teacher but with just looking into Seungho's eyes, he couldn't help but be aroused. I want them to end up together but I also want Seungho to have e good character development like Jiwon from BJ Alex. He might be mean to him a lot but he also treated him better than his teacher ever did.
Yes, true. NK probably loves Inhun more like the father he never had and he just doesn't realize it yet. But what was upsetting to me was to see that he still trusts his teacher after all what happened. Inhun insulted him and ignored him. He left without even saying goodbye yet NK still cherish him. It's a step back in NK's character development in my opinion.
That was his first live, it's hard to get rid of that but I sincerely think be just used him as an excuse to stay. It's like a safe bet for him, instead of having to think about his feelings and admit that be really loves Seungho.
The new chapter is actually one of my favorites so far.
It's heartbreaking and unassuming because it's not so much thrill and action but we get to see two characters speaking out what they are thinking: Mr Kim and Nakyum.
Maybe because for me I am well over the point of discussing the fictional morality of Seungho x Nakyum ( I am not a reader who can't live without social justice moral in my fiction, my favorite character is a Yakuza boss so if I am to demand my fictional characters to be punished by their behavior like they would in real life, my choice in Yaoi section would be really, really tiny). Anyway, since I am not in the least bothered by Seungho x Nakyum endgame and think the author heavily, massively promotes this ship like honey at the end of the tunnel, I think the fun of this story is really about watching how the author will write the path to that.
In the last chapter, we clearly see that both Seungho and Nakyum have conflicting feelings towards each other but they can't help but be drawn towards the other man. Seungho has fallen in love with Nakyum. Yes, it's a selfish, entitled way of love that only a man who grew up starved of affection but it's used to get anyone can have. He doesn't know how to love Nakyum any other way but taking it as if it was his right. At the same time, what Mr Kim said is really important. Why is Seungho so cruel to Nakyum? He goes from extreme opposites from torturing Nakyum to doing things he never bothered to do for anyone else. So why is he cruel to the person he clearly can't live without ? My theory is only that Seungho instinctively fights the feeling of being under someone's power. He feel in love with the lowborn but he hates him for it.
Nakyum on the other hand. I know people love to talk about Stockholm syndrome but I feel readers forget the early chapters where Nakyum and Seungho were already drawn for each others. Seungho always was alluring to Nakyum, he was already having erotic dreams with the master, in his sexual awakening and even during his torturous events, the fact is that Nakyum also got to see the very small glimpses of a human Seungho. Be when he was vulnerable having nightmares or when he was passed out drunk confessing, or when he once felt the 'warmth' in Seungho's embrace. So, as much as readers want to paint Seungho as only monster, the story is telling that Nakyum got close enough to see bits of a different Seungho. On top of it, Seungho fell for him and being cherished, even more by someone you know it's unattainable to you is a powerful thing.
Anyway, I think this chapter was beautifully crafted. It has even more signs that the story is following a classic formula of powerful man being tamed by a seemingly powerless one. Mr Kim, a man we know has been with Seungho for years, is canon saying that he knows Seungho is not heartless.... this is important too because the story needs to have Seungho as a damaged human that needs rescue as much as Nakyum. For all that Seungho did to Nakyum, there is also a part of Nakyum that got woken by Seungho and I am not talking about sex. It was Seungho's words in the market that provoked Nakyum to go demand from Inhun an answer about what he was for him. So it's not only one side being changed here. They are both shaping the other.