Comics that compel me though

When the civilian is the crazy one - the dynamic here is just...it's a fucking trainwreck and I couldn't look away.

FUCKING WHAT THE HELL MY HEART OMFG - I literally read this one in basically one sitting over the course of like....6 hours on New Years Day and high school is not my thing. No graphic sex, some questionable consent moments but some of the most well-executed interactions I've ever seen and like...idfk I couldn't look away from any of these assholes. They made me CARE about EVERYONE. Which is just insanely impressive.

This is on my yakuza list but like. Listen. It's amazing. Well-written, creative framing device, stunning art, & the trauma responses that Kei has - to his abusers and to Yukata as his first somewhat-stable relationship - are probably the most realistic of anything I've seen in BL/Yaoi manga ever. Now there's this whole thing with tax fraud idk?! I want a happy ending for them but at this point i suspect tragedy but cant look away. GENIUS.

NO PUNCHES PULLED. NONE. HOLY FUCK THIS ONE GOES SO HARD. And I love that our outsider is just as unhinged as the gang leader who loves him. Like yes please give me a pair of feral monsters in love, Natural Born Killers style please. I love this one so much. It's on my yakuza list also. Like listen - I'm paying actual adult money for this one on Lezhin I love it so much and like...I only do that for a few things (Love for Sale being basically the only other one).

I'm! *pulls hair* So this hits on some dark shit...namely middle schoolers having sex and lying about rape? FOR LOVE? I SWEAR TO YOU IT MAKES SENSE AND IS - ACTUALLY REALLY IN FACT ROMANTIC? (no one is actually raped in this manga ok) BUT OH MY GOD THE DRAMA! FFS tho like maybe I'm old and maybe its cuz me and literally everyone I knew didnt fuck til college but like...who was getting laid at 15?!

omg okay so this one is amazingly twisted and hits like...all my buttons - there's a reencounter, there's internalized homophobia, there's someone punishing himself with painful sex, there's magical healing cock *chef kiss* fucking yes please give me all the compelling ridiculous shit that I come to yaoi for please and thank you I am a garbage person

Really you don't know? Wait. Do you seriously do you not know? Okay, so, it's cosmic horror but with graphic sex featuring righteously angry kickass smol and protective godking of hell tol. It's sexy as hell with an amazing plot and the fact that there will never be an anime (cuz porn is a mechanic of the door) breaks my heart.

I cannot look away from this fucking manwha. Why? What is it about this? Is it that I love a story where a sex worker actually does sex work? Is it that a story where a sex worker actually gets to fall in love with someone other than a client compels me? Is it that I am a slut for a D/s relationship where a stone top is both kind and cruel at once? Yes. Yes to all of it. Why is there not more shit like this? IDK. Cuz other writers are cowards by comparison I guess. Fucking amazing this story.

I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this but is the next chapter out?

Like okay everything about this is agony. The power imbalance is awful. The untenable situation is awful. The antagonistic coworkers are awful. The family members are awful. But I want him to get out of this situation so badly that I keep coming back because it's just so damn engaging.

Fuck you writer. Fuck you. How dare you make me care like this?

I love it. I love ABΩ that goes against heteronormativity. Bless.